May 2012
April 2012
March 2012
I regret that lass kiss. God I feel so fucking stupid. I keep on going back too. I just hope that oh maybe this is the time she’ll actually give a fuck about me. Nope. You say you’ll be here, say we can smoke, say all these things and giving me false hope and then of course you just dont care to live up to them or if it hurts me. Fuck I’m so stupid for still believing in and...
I’m scared my worse addiction is coming back. I can’t stop thinking about hurting myself. I’ve been craving it almost. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why can’t I just cope and take it easy like everyone else? I have to get so low, so fucking low. I don’t want to have to constantly fight with myself to not self mutilate. I wish I was stronger.
February 2012
I don't know what to do.
Bars all night = Sleep all day
turn off your mind, relax and float down stream
